just a blog~: 28.01.2012

so I started the day by going to work at 11am. it was quite busy to be fair, was on the til from 1pm til my finish at 3. not much happened just the same old. c2c is messed up on weekends and i missed my train that was at 3:10 cos i didnt get out til around that time. next one was in half an hour so idecided to go h&m and primark. was trying on clothes and missed my next train so had to wait another half an hour. went more shopping and bought some stuff from h&m but not sure about it. went to the lift and someone pressed all the floors so we started at 3, went down to level 2, then 1, then 4,5 and finally 6 lol. just made it across the bridge and to the station in time for the 4:10 train. it went to upminster and had to wait a few mins for the train that goes to liverpool st. went to stratford and went to the dlr bit. waited about 7 minutes for it in the cold and there were no trains to go lewisham way. had to get off at westferry. got told to take replacement bus service but there were like no signs anyway for where the bus stop would be or anything and so many people were confused but we saw the bus so ran to the bus stop. mum called me whilst i was walking to the back of the bus and up the stair and i tripped into the chair. embarrased much. then got off at mudchute, forgot how to get to porpors so just decided to tryyy get there. travel was so long though took me nearly an hour and a half. was going the right way because i remembered the dentist place, carried on walking. crossed road and nearly got run over.. took my phone out to tell oscar i nearly got run over and at that moment, i tripped and fell over. i was on the road of my porpors house i was so close, like i could see the house, was about 7 houses down or something. i was just lying there on the floor cos i was in so much pain i couldnt get up. my phone obviously fell out my hand and that was the first time ive dropped my phone. it was on the road and i thought i better pick that up before it gets crushed by a car so i stretched and tried to reach it whilst still lying there. then after a while i was like i can't sit here clutching my knees so i tried to get up but couldn't. forced myself to grab all my stuff and get up and tried to walk to the house whilst trying not to cry. gunggung opened the door and i was like hello gungung happy new year whilst almost tearing up. saw my mum and told her i fell over and started crying and showed her my hand. washed it and was crying lol. porpor went to get me plasters and i had to go upstairs. mum help me put plasters on and she checked my knees to see if they had been cut. they looked slightly grazed but nothing really. i was just like crying and went into the room. tried to sit on the floor, usually when you sit you do it steadily but i couldn't and just kinda fell and then bashed my head on the radiator.. T_T. i was just like laughing and crying and batmui told hayden to give me a cuddle and he just stood there staring at me LOL. then he was like "jeh jeh mo harm ah" *cuddle and kiss* <3. was explaining to them my epic fall T__T". hayden kept standing on the scales and saying "twoooo" cos he was two stones lol. kids were just on their itouch/ipad and gadgets. then ate spring rolls. had a talk with lisa and that's when everything changed. i was actually outraged and confused. but whatever. i couldn't actually walk down the stairs properly lol. went down to get spring rolls and was just trying to get down the stairs and thats when vo realised i hurt my legs as well lol "pk". ate dinner, legs were killing me wasnt even moving but it hurt so much. didnt eat much. soup was yummy. went to living room and sat and watched a bit of bbt and some other stuff. chun got told off for trying to move the mahjong table by herself and watching scary stuff on tv =/ lol. then they all shouted at her for leaving the room and she was like IM GOING TOILET. then i saw her upstairs and was like YOU'RE NOT GOING TOILET! LOL. caitlyn found a new best friend- chiu. caitlyn and hayden were just like playing with the tissues and stuff and porpor was like wahhhh so naughty LOL. me and lisa found some glasses and started messing around. couldn't actually see properly so blurry LOL. hurhur. can't really remember anything else T_T played with the talking tom on ipod LOL haha we were all just comparing voices and stuff. then lisa and chun left then remy left and ryan. just me and leon left we were waiting for my dad to go home. felt like the longest journey ever. dad drives so slow and porpors is far away lol. got home finally waited for the bathroom and had a bath. my bruises were extreme. accidently knocked my arm into my right knee and i felt tears in my eyes omg. so painful T__T". and my hand stung in the bath lol wah. spoke on the phone to oscar but couldn't speak properly cos i just kept crying so got off the phone lol. if i hear his voice i just start to cry and act like a baby T_T. so was just whatsapping and facebooking and texting kinda. was so tired. i had my legs straight cos i couldn't bend my legs but i was so cold so wanted to bend my legs and curl up like a ball to be warm but couldn't physically so i was so distressed. eventually i just curled up and the pain started to go away. bed <3 <3. my mood deteriorated and was just so shit after finding out. rejected/missed 10calls and eventually fell asleep whilst texting/rejecting calls/crying from the pain lololol. woke up at 5/6 and was like T__T". kept thinking about it, it didnt bother me too much at night but when i woke up in the morning it made me pissed and i didnt understand and slyly cried some tears. took ages to fall back to sleep and woke up around 9/10 ish again. just stayed in bed. actually felt kinda rough as well like sick. wanted to stay in bed. was just texting them and trying to understand the whole situation- don't feel bad girls -__- its not your fault. if anything, the truth is better so thank you. felt less pissed and angry and more confused and just confused and upset lol. but right now i just feel like whatever. cant avoid it forever so i'll just kinda pretend i don't know .. if i can. so yes, that was my day/evening and this morning lol.

oh and just remembered something,
leon: "martines not that tall."
martine: *stands next to leon*
LOOOOOOOOL OWNED.