just a blog~: 28.02.2012

pulled myself out of bed in the early hours of the morning x_X. it looked ridiculously gloomy outside so i decided to be my usual trampy self. side gate was closed.. why. psychology we were learning about sleep and how like, dolphins can be asleep and awake at the same time and i said i wished i could do that in this lesson. LOL not sure if and heard me, but real talk. i think me and mollie were having a conversation and she was saying how we humans were made, "if we were made, or wherever we came from" so intelligent but wild animals would so be able to kill us. and it all started to get a little bit "deep" so i just busted out "WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LYFEEEEEEEEE." lulz.

it's dangerous to wake someone up when theyre in REM sleep. DON'T WAKE ME UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP >=(

finished lesson at half 9, went to library for a bit to do some work. didn't want to go over to roberts cos i didn't even know if he was awake or not yet LOL. so i just did some stats. some girl asked if she could borrow a pen when i was packing up cos hers ran out, but i actually only had one and i felt bad lOL. and then she went to get one and when she was coming back, i was leaving and she said "thank you" like really sincerely, even though i didnt actually give her a pen. bless her. i was like o.0. so i got to his house just past half 10ish. got greeted by a tired looking face with red joggers on. i was like "... the fuck O_O" LOLOL. in my head ofc. didn't want to insult him first thing in the morning. went to the spare room and forgot it'd changed. it was pretty messy tbh LOL just saw like, pandan cake on the table and tissues on floor >_<". bin was like full up and there was like clothes on the sofa and floor LOL. sat on the sofa for while. he wanted to watch a film called blitz. he said it "might scare you though." we watched the trailer and i was just like, how is this scary? what a pussy LOL. just sat on sofa watching that for around 1.5 hrs. it was alright haha quite intruiging although at times i was confused at times. it was not scary, even though its not supposed to be but yeah. i was really tired and kinda falling asleep too, but obviously i cant sleep during the day lol, just kept yawning x_X. said hi to auntie and he was just deciding what to eat lolol.

tried to find take me out on this sky thing but he failed... and he was just flicking through the channels and the adult ones came up on the guide thing and he was like "yeahhh my kinda channels." SMH SMH SMH. lOL. then tried to get it up on his laptop but his internet failed him and the sound was playing but the thing wasnt even on and idk it was just fail moment lol. so he restarted his computer and we went down to make food. nothing new, gung jai mein as per usual. xD so unhealthy.. but yeah. better than him ordering pizza x_X. sat and ate for a while, it took me quite a long time tbh >_<". belly was still rumbling after idk why ¬_¬ dont tell me im going through that awkward "EAT EVERYTHING ALWAYS FEELING HUNGRY" stage again LOL. oh dear. take me out worked this time, he was too scared to make it full screen in case it didnt work but i did it and it worked ^^. was just explaining my love for take me out LOL. smh. >________< HEEE :). and on some girl he was like "i'd do her" LOOOOL he meant "i'd date her" but you can't take back what you said smh. she wasnt even that hot. there were hotter ones. there was a guy called white? and he was literally, dressed in all white and had grungy white hair.. IDK LOL so many people turned their lights off. and he had a blackout. "ALL BY MYSELFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF~" heeeeeee ^_^ TAKE ME OUT <3.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3j_fdSpkmE
idk how to embed properly? oh well. just the link ^_^.

he went to lie on the bed after a while cos he was so exhausted >_<". i was just highly amused by take me out. but my attention turned elsewhere :(.

he cried, i watched him, i cried. it was only tears, so idk if i would count it as crying. i felt so helpless. hopefully this time next week everything will be fine again. asdfghjkfd;sklfnksdnflkdsnflkndslkfnsdlkn cannot bear/bare/beeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr to watch him so vulnerable. but meh. i was just sniffling like a loser / trying to watch take me out/ him whilst he sortof-slept/lied there. i wiped away his tear but then i had some myself and he told me not to cry. LOL PUSSIO TIMES. smh. T^T.

I TRIED TO PLAY CALL OF DUTY. LOL. erm i had no idea what was going on. i was just like "..." LOL :(. bad times. i just said its because i am underage to play the game so thats why i suck at it LOL. i heard his mum call him "rob" so i proved my point that he does get called rob although he says he doesnt like it. so i kept calling him "rob" even though i don't like it myself LOL and then he tickled me and beat me up so i stopped :(.oh and he pinned me down and examined my face and said i'd gone spotty. I KNOW T_T" *cries. LOL.
on the walk back to college he was telling me about how his friends all call him a hypocrite cos he once said he would "never date a private school girl." hahahaha. but she isnt snobby so it "doesnt count" xD. bless, and he said she didnt know what "real talk" meant. its quite hard to believe HE used to go private school although it was primary so doesnt really count. he says "init" like every 10 seconds LOL.

went to tutorial and i was bare lonely sat there. it wasnt even the principle giving the talk? idk it was the most pointless thing ever. i was just like "huh its over? O_O" LOL wth. went back to the canteen to find the others. fraz tried to pretend he ate my slice of cake. NAO YOU NOOB. arsalan had a measuring tape so i decided to "measure" myself, even though it was only 1m long. i was 165cm. went on phone to convert it, it rounded up to 5"5. lisa was 5"2, truc was 5ft when rounded up, but she was actually less than that XD. heh heh awww <3. fraz was 5"7 i think? then saw them measure lisas head LOL, fraz's was slightly bigger XD. haha them bighead wuns. then i suggested we mark on the wall to accurately see how tall we were.. it turned into using a sharpie. DUNDUNDUN. trouble begins >:O. we marked our height with our initials. teacher walked past and we were like DUNDUNDUNDUDNUDNUDNUDN. LOL. uhoh. but yeah, they went away. then we continued more and we were being so suspiscious and the marks were TOOO OBVIOUS LOL. and we were like shit X_X. and lisa was getting shit scared over teachers walking past. and then joanna went by andi was like oh crap shes my maths teacher and shes part of the senior people :O. uhoh. LOL >_< so i suggested we put a poster over the top to conceal our rebellion LOL. rj wouldnt do it because i was "taller" than him, even though he's taller. pussy. arsalan was so much taller. LISA DUH SHORT TINGZ bah. LOL. then we started to abuse the actual poster LOL. "no cock fighting" HAHAH. and turned "ID" into "1D <3". uhohs. and "lift here" xD. also fraz wrote LC and "90131" on the wall, or whatever kawings number is xD. HAHA. we are nawtyyyyyyyyy. then stephy and robert came along. we needed them too but then i thought NUUU roberts gna be all the way up there and the poster wont cover it (N). so we only put stephy up XD. we are so mischievious and not sly LOL. >_<. robert was sitting away on the other side so i said he should just put his own mark over the other wall, isolated from the rest of us, cos thats how he was sitting away too haha. got my slice of cake but didnt want it all haha, so gave some to leanne <3 and winnie xD <33 lulz. lisa was telling me how she gave fraz and truc a slice but not her cos it was for me. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO <3. "wandy" came along and we all had to act innocent >=).

went to stn with robert cos he needed to go decathlon, even though i dont even remember how to get there LOL. but yeah, it was 4 and there was a train but decided not to run up the stairs cos we had plenty of time. and a train didnt come til like, 4:17.. when the c2c was already gone.. WHAI WE GOT SUCH BAD TIMING. was just siting waiting for district and he was like "so why was you crying." i was like "i wasnt. why were you crying then?" "i wasnt crying, had something in my eye." LOL forever in denial <3. so we wouldve had to wait 25 mins at upminster but he said bus was coming in a few mins so we tapped out and went to get bus instead. he showed me rooms, it kinda looked like john lewis / house of fraser? haha. bus journey was mainly us just sitting there in silence. he was tired and i just liked to enjoy the sun ^_^. i can't remember what we were talking about but i said "Oh my dear god." and he thought i said "oh my dick" LOL and now he keeps saying "oh my dick" instead of omg. LOL it makes me laugh everytime. oh and he was telling me a story of how his friend calls his girlfriend a "hole for my dick." SMH SOME BOYS ARE SO SHALLOW X_X. he got my ring stuck on his fourth finger haha, he was wearing it on his last finger instead. i think guys look good in rings, robert and larry and arsalan and fraz, (basically everyone) ^_^. hurhur. oh, that reminds me he's still got my ring. he couldve at least taken the uglier one. anyways, we made a bet to see if we'd get there earlier/later than the train. but we got there same time. he insisted on going one way to decathlon and i was so sure it was the wrong way but we went anyways, until he realised it was wrong. he was just like "we need to go to the other car park." and i was like "wtf are you talking about though? there's SO MANY." LOL. then i kinda tried to remember and we walked through the m&s one and he was going to turn but i saw some like, weird pathy bit and was like hmm it looks like this way, but i suppose from where we were standing it looked like it was a mountain drop or something LOL but i insisted to just let me see so I know whether i was right or wrong. i was right, it was that way. xD led us to tesco. and decathlon was on the bloody hill, like i told him. had to go allll the way round LOL effort. when we got there, it looked so isolated and like, empty. i was just messing around saying LOL its closed. 8D. whole day he kept making remarks and just arguing with me in general. BITCH -_-"/ faaaaking guyyyyyyyyyy. and LOL he kept singing the egg song ^_^ he was like you're so weird this is shit. but i think ITS TOO CUTE, and he kept saying "i lickya bumbummmmmmmmmmm" is it a song or something? idk all the time. and ever since i told him how kawing used to say sex relieves period pains. he's like "naiceeee thats how i like it." LOL and was like joking around trying to find a girl on her period so he could lick her bum. smh. or, even a guy. his homo ways. actually could be gay. and he slapped fraz's bum really hard in the canteen LOOOOOOOl FRAZ LOOKED SO VIOLATED IDK ME AND TRUC WERE CRACKING UP HAHAHAHA AWW <3. anyways, he was finding the stuff for the mountain thing hes doing. haha i like getting lost in decathlon. we actually spent a rather long time in there. tried on a kids one-zie. i looked peng LOL. and found some kids coats so tried it on. it didnt actually look that bad and he bought it LOL. think he could genuinely work it but he doesnt believe me LOL. i'd wear it xD. there was like a disk / the things you put on weights? he wanted to see if i'd be able to lift it.. i couldnt.. LOL and i crushed it on my little finger and was like ER T_T. he puts 3 of them on each side, so he said thats like lifting 6 of me at once. i was like THE FUK? LOL. some people cant even lift ONE of me =/. anyways he ended up spending over 70? just on stuff to keep him warm for the mountain thing, that he'll probably never use again O_O. anyways he was getting his mums advice but she was just like "idc." haha owned. when we went in the moon was really big, like the size of lisas head, it was pretty. when we came out it was dark >_<. the walk back to lakeside seemed less long though, maybe cos we knew the way this time. nearly got run over casj. the gate bit by tesco to lakeside was slightly scary at night as was the path around the lake haha. but i took pictures cos the lights were pretty ^___^. he told me to get in the photo -_-" to prove "flash" was better but obviously it wasnt. had half hour til his train and i was craving coke.. queue was longgggg O_O". sat and he ate apple pie cos i was talking about it earlier and apple pie = boner. apparently. LOL. i only like the crispy bit ><". and i was just describing mine and lisas hate for stupid kpop lovers LOL god get a lyfeeee. -_-" but yeah. he was explaining how much he hates "TOP" LOL just cos she always talks about him XD~ THEM BAIT JEALOUS ONES. but he is sexy so i dont blame her. jheeeze <3. TOP is buff tingz ;D. lol "either clothes or no clothes. NOT SLUT CLOTHES."
oh and we were laughing at how sick larry is <3 hee ^_^. idk he mentioned something about human centipede and i was like oh fraz/arsalan told me about that but he said "are you sure it wasnt larry? he shows me some sick stuff, like some guy who died from an erect penis that poked him in the eye." i was like WTF LOL. larry is jokes <3 ^_^

got home and smelt the curry X_X. me and leon were just making faces at each other LULZ its in the family men. my dad was telling us stories of how he looks "25" and i was just "LOL NO." and leon was like ".." and my mum was just like "no one would even believe you if you said that." LOL. and showed my mum pics of carmen ^_^hehe. cute. tried to take picture of leon doing the face but he "couldnt." -__-". dad was playing guitar which always disrupts my kekjap sessions :(. after my shower i was just sitting on my bed playing bejewled for like half an hour waiting for my kekjap. MY LIFE IS SO FUN XD.

didn't take any work with me home so idk, i'll go college "earlier" to "do some work" tomorrow xD> hurhurrrr. looked and felt SO ROUGH today. let me not look so trampy tomorrow haha. idk if ive forgotten anything i always forget shit to write. oh wells. long ting.