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fuck it. i give up.


just going to pretend you didn't say any of that and go back to 'normal'. i give up avoiding you and not talking to you it's too hard. let me just let it go for a while-- i'll never understand or know but it's something we will never talk about so i'll just accept that.i suppose i can't completely forget it happened because i'm always thinking about it, but i can take what you said on board and act on it. i can stop being like that.


and especially not at a time like this. it scares me and i know you are scared too, even if you choose not to show your weak side. researching it and it's scaring me. i'll be there for you, please be okay and be strong.