28.09.2012

Horoscope
24.09.2012

Aries
Relationships have been a big area for you over the past two and a half years but now you can start to benefit from the extra knowledge you have gained and some good things are possible. It's true that change is in the air.

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You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep rereading the last one.

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I remember this time last year. I had TGIs for the first time at stratford westfield. I was preparing your present. I got the wrong size for you. Printed photos of us and made your present. I was excited for you to open it. Actually, that was for valentines day. What did I even get you for your birthday? Trying to remember but I can't. So many memories we share yet I can't even remember. Not being able to remember details of events that had such significance once, why? Although some things I've forgotten, what I remember are mainly the smaller details. The more insignificant details, the smaller things that always meant more. Late night phone calls every night, a shoulder to lean on, guitaring and singing together, cloud watching and spotting images, tracing your freckles, drawing love hearts on your cheek with my finger, all these little things. Every little thing that happens in my day to day life that reminds me of you. Reminds me of us. Trying to move on but trying to hold on at the same time. So many things that could have been avoided yet I still manage to ruin the last hope we had at being friends. A promise we both know is no longer possible. Although I've moved onto the next chapter of my life, a part of me wishes you were here. Not possible. I keep thinking back and comparing, thinking how lost life is without you. Seeing you all the time hurts. I have moved on but not fully. And now that's unfair to all of us. Thinking of quitting to avoid excess pain to the both of us. I need you completely out of my life in order for me to forget.

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Time will heal me.