hormonal. ill. pained. fustrated. for the past two years ive always had someone there and now i do "have" someone, theyre not actually Here. so far away, cant see each other. but you've got such a busy schedule we can't even talk during the day. like, i dont really have you even though i do have you. feel like being in a relationship is the same as not being in one. no physicality. nothing to say because i know its not your fault so im not taking it out on you, but i have nothing positive to say right now so im just not saying anything at all. a basic requirement on a relationship could be talking but how does it even feel like one if we can' t because of the hectic schedules. i never felt this way before, it was alwayd worth it. but now im hormonal and lonely and just want you when i cant have you ffs.