you can't make your heart feel, something it won't.
-i can't stop my heart feeling something i don't want.


some things leave a mark too deep 
and some things are too hard to forget.

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” 
― Maya Angelou

but people will never forget how you made them feel.
the emotions i felt when it happened are still felt so strongly. 
the hurt and the pain of what happened, even if it was months ago, although felt less regularly, is still as strong as it was at the time. it's like, a feeling that i can't overcome and will always have. 
everytime i pass the field, or any certain place, it's like a trigger is pulled and everything rushes back and i remember how i felt at the time and i feel it too, at that precise moment. maybe only for a second, sometimes for hours. i still remember. i still feel.