-sigh-

its not that i dont want to express it. i just.. whats the point. nothing can change because well, this is what it is like. this is how it's going to be. you cant force someone to behave in a particular way, cant want someone to want to do something if they dont want to. 

i dont expect anything to be different. thats why i didnt say anything. just, sometimes i have a slight hope that maybe, you do want to.

it's just hard to understand? accept? get used to? from what i used to have to what i have now. things change everything everyone is different. i know i cant expect things to be the same. just, why does it seem something is missing. isnt it natural for someone to want to talk to the person they love. why does that feel missing. this is why it cant change. you cant change what you want, you cant make something thats supposed to be there natrurally just appear. cos then itll feel like ive forced you. unnatural. forced you to want to talk to me.